09 April 2010

my heart is open

seems I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognized my own reflection, no
scared of love, but scared of life alone
seems I've been playin' on the safe side baby
building walls around my heart to save me, oh
but it's time for me to let it go

yeah, I'm ready to feel now
no longer am I afraid of the fall down
it must be time to move on now
without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

just when you think that love will never find you
you run away but still it's right behind you, oh
it's just something that we can't control

yeah, I'm ready to feel now
no longer am I afraid of the fall down
it must be time to move on now
without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

so come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

yeah, I'm ready to feel now
no longer am I afraid of the fall down
it must be time to move on now
without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, ready to love again

My heart is open. The other day I was listening to Keith Urban's song, "My Heart is Open," and really reflected on the condition my heart was in. And I realized that it is open. More open now than it has been in a long time. Gone are the days of hiding behind a protective wall of security and fear. I'm open. I'm ready to lay my heart out on the floor-to really fall, even if it hurts-especially if it hurts. I'm open to potentially hurting much more than I ever have before, because that means that I will have had so much more joy and happiness than I have had. Keith Urban's song talks about the point on having an open heart when you have found someone to open it to, but the song above, "Ready to Love Again" by Lady Antebellum, describes more the point where I am. I was scared of love and scared of life alone. I was playing on the safe side, with walls around my heart, but I've moved past that. I'm ready to feel. I'm not afraid of the fall down. I'm ready to move on in my life, to find someone and not be afraid of how it might end. I'm ready to really love. And the best thing is that this open heart of mine doesn't just refer to a potential relationship with a significant other. My heart is open and ready to love everyone, to really be the best kind of person I can be, to really share the love I have and feel with others. I read a book yesterday, A Heart Like His by Virginia H. Pearce, and it was amazing and an amazing experience to read. I had just been thinking about how my heart was open and the entire book is about opening our hearts to really feel God's love for us and share that love with those around us, to allow that love and openness to change us and give us "a heart like His." I truly realized how open my heart was at that moment and how I want to make it a goal in my life to have a more open heart. In just the past day while I have been aware of the openness of my heart I have had so much more joy and happiness and my capacity to love has increased exponentially. It is so AMAZING!

My heart is open. And I love. :)