26 February 2009


I love Africa. I do. And I have been thinking about it a lot lately. I am looking into applying for internships with various humanitarian agencies, and I keep on remembering my experience in Uganda. I lived there a few summers ago for a few months and it was an amazing experience. I learned so much. I was able to get to know so many amazing people and adorable children. I started a program where I would read and play activity songs with the kindergarten age students at one of the schools we volunteered at and this is what greeted me every day when I arrived:

I miss it. A lot. I really wish I could go back. I would love to do that with my summer and the rest of my life. On my way back to the United States, after my experience in Uganda, I wrote something in the airport that I want to share, just basically my thoughts on leaving(with a few lyrics from Carrie Underwood songs that I was listening to and applied to my life at the time):

don't forget to remember me . . .

so excited to go home, but really sad and missing the kids. oh how I love them, I just want to hug them one last time. sharon and peace and sharon and shafic and paul and tazuli and julliet and faizo and hamidan and nakato and miriam and mariam and fiona and fiona and lydia and molly and agnes and all of them, every single one, even alex the leech and colline the thumb-sucker and bum-toucher, and eric with his huge smile and sick hands and just everyone, all of their smiles and all of their laughter, will I ever hear it again? It breaks my heart to think that I won't, that I won't know what will happen in their lives, that some of them will die in the next few years, more will be orphaned, some will get aids, be raped, be beaten, it makes me hurt inside, they are so innocent and the world is so unfair.

. . . moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye.

And I said goodbye. I have even recently been toying with the idea of starting an orphanage somewhere in Africa. The desire to do that has recently returned to me. So I don't really know what I am doing with my life, but maybe it will include Africa.