20 December 2007

the song remembers when

The inspiration for this post is, of course, Trisha Yearwood's song entitled The Song Remembers When. I heard this song again last night and I realized how much I can relate to it.

If you didn't already know, I really have a thing for song lyrics. I remember the lyrics of songs in an almost freakish way and love finding songs that describe my life as well as the lives of those around me. And, of course, I have different songs that I loved and listened to a lot in relation to different boys in my life. And whenever one of those songs begins to play, I remember the time that I would listen to that song a lot and the memories come flooding back to me. Yes, indeed, the song remembers when.

though I have forgotten all about it . . .
even if the whole world has forgotten
the song remembers when

18 December 2007

trying to find a place in this world

This week is finals week. As such, I have been working on a final paper for one of my classes. We were supposed to choose an ethnic conflict in the world, research it, and then write up our findings. I chose the Palestinian/Israeli conflict in Israel. Wow! I learned so much. I have really learned a lot from this class that I have taken and I have really been thinking a lot about the things that are going on in the world and my place in the world.

With every conflict going on in the world there is so much going on, so much history, so much background, so much culture that we don't know. We just hear or see little snippets of what is happening, but we really don't know. This class and this paper made me realize that we really need to make an effort to learn about what is going on in the world and understand the conflicts. It isn't really enough to just know that so and so are fighting about such and such in some far away land. And yet as we learn about the world, the more we realize how much we don't know. It's crazy, but at least then we won't think that we have all the answers.

It kind of amazes me how much my view of the world has changed over the past year. I'm an anthropology major and had the opportunity to volunteer in Uganda this summer which was the experience of a lifetime. Probably one of the most life-changing things that has happened in my life up to this point. Because of this experience and things I have learned in classes such as this one on war and another one on development I really want to understand what is happening in the world more. I want to stay more up to date with current events, but also know the background to those events. And then as I realize more and more how much I don't know and try to know more, I will be better able to understand the world that I live in and hopefully be able to make some small difference, in what way I don't know just yet. I'm working on that. Just trying to find my place in this world.

17 December 2007

dancing through life

I love to dance. This is true. I have a dream to someday waltz across campus (and not just walking waltzing, really waltzing, maybe even viennese). Yes, we (me and whoever I am waltzing with, it doesn't really work well by yourself) will probably get some weird looks, but it will be fun. And I am crazy anyway so people probably won't find it all that different.

For an example of my craziness: at the last two ward activities I have just had a great desire to dance, mostly triple swing, and so I did. In the middle of the activity. I proceeded to coerce one of my girl friends into dancing with me (the boys were all otherwise occupied) and I pretended to be the guy and lead the dance which is really difficult when you have spent the last few years learning how to follow. But, after a while I learned how to lead a few steps and it was fun. And we triple swing-ed for quite a while. I would have kept dancing for a very long time, and I wanted to, but my dance partner was unfortunately not so enthusiastic. And it ended, but I have the promise of three dance classes next semester calling to me. It is going to be a great semester, I can feel it. :)

Yes, I am crazy. Yes, I love dancing. And, I'm happy.

14 December 2007

living out loud

So the title of this blog came from three songs that I like: "Living Out Loud" from the Charly soundtrack, "Dancing Through Life" from Wicked, and "A Place in This World" from Taylor Swift's CD. I love to dance (and I love Wicked, hence the middle song) and the other two songs pretty much describe my life. Here are some lyrics to illustrate:

I'm out of my mind
But I kinda like it
I'm swimmin' in clouds like I'm royalty
Don't mind if it rains
'Cause nothin' can stop me
It's destiny
I dream when I wake
and dance when I'm sleeping
I give it my all 'cause
I live out loud each minute and hour of every day

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I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
'Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Tryin' to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one who feels the way I do.

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah,
But that's ok

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

And I am just a girl--dancing, living out loud, and trying to find a place in the world. :)